GRUNGE &ROCK THE WORLD

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

i dont want to survive in this world anymore. just kill me. im dead anyways. brain dead. what ever. you can just take away my life support.

posted @ 8:22 PM |

nick : "natural" height you mean ? haha. :DD

posted @ 7:35 PM |

had CHEMISTRY paper in the morning. GOSHH. it sucked okay. but i guess i cant do much about it now can i ? i dont know larh. yeah. then CHINESE lessons. that FOO FOOO. omg. she can like talk non stop one lorh. just because we didnt bring our chinese workbook. yeah. she mad us stand and then she scold scold scold. yeah. then had A MATHS paper. GOSHH. i am so going to die okay. it SUCKED LIKE HELLL. im going to die.i never never ever felt so bad when i did a paper before. T.T

yeah. had training. DEAD

i dontknow what to do anymore. i feel like GIVING UP on everything. nothing ever works out. sometimes, life just loses it meaning for me. i dontknow hy. but it just does. the only thing holding me back is that something keeps aking me, IS IT WORTH IT ? i dont know. i just feel so STUPID. i dontknow why these things must happen. it all happened on the same day. i dont think i can talk it anymore. its too much for me to hold. i dont want it to happen. not anymore. or i wouldnt be able to control myself anymore. :(

-violence overpowers me

posted @ 7:12 PM |

Monday, February 26, 2007

yesterday
okay. had GREATKIDZ. yeah. i forgot so many things to bring to expo cans. so embarrassing cans. yeah. i didnt bring my TOUCHKIDZ tagg. i didnt bring ORANGES. i didnt bring my NOTEBOOK. i didnt bring my BIBLE. and i didnt bring my MONEY. yeah. the consequences for sleeping at 2 plus. haha. yeah.

then went to meet NICCC they all. DENISE tried to tie FRENCH BRAID. failed attempt. but doesnt matter. good try huhh ? haha. yeah. then took pictures in the toilet. haha.

NICCC and i ! she's tipping toes ~!

me and NICCC ! :DDD

then went for service. yeah. i wasnt listening much during sermon larh. was just kinda distracted. yeah. then took a picture of YIJING and i during sermon. lets hope no leaders hear this. haha.

SHADOWS and SHOES ! :D

then went for NETWORK MEETING. yeah. borrowed BETTINA's oranges. haha. psps. yeah. then met ADA. haha. i thought she's older than me. but we're the same age ! haha. yeah. the left at 5. cause my mum wants MY SIS and I to. yeah. then went home lorh.

today
had CAs today. oh mann. i didnt even know which papers were up today larhh. :( what the hell cans. yeah. which was CHINESE EMATHS and PURE LIT. yeah. CHINESE was SCREWEDD okay. yeah. when SYLVIA WONG said 10 more minutes, i havent even read question 3 lorh. wth. yeah. its like. compre. 7 questions. haha. retarded larh. i think cause i fell asleep during the paper lorh. paiseh. haha. then EMATHS. haha. its was quite okay. :D larh. didnt know how to draw the cumulative curve thing. :( yeah. otherwise. it was okay. i mean. there was nothing better that i could do, but i just felt it wasnt enough. :( PURE LIT was, ermm. catching up on sleep time. haha. not that i finished early. but i was really really tired larh. yeah.

then went to ANCHORPOINT with DORCAS. wanted to but thermometer lorh. but was like super expensive. so i didnt buy. cause im broke. haha. yeah. then got DRENCHED in the HEAVY HEAVY RAIN. while running to the bus stop. GOSHH. screwed my hair okay. but doesnt matter. yeah. then came home. now stoning. haha.

tmr is ENGLISH ans SS paper. THREE MORE DAYS ! :DD

i saw you again. and i pretended that i didnt. i dontknow. i seriously think i wouldnt dare say hello ever again. i really really think you know it already. :( i didnt want it to be like this. why must it be this way. this never ever turn out right do they.

-these scars dont seem to heal; these wounds are just too real

posted @ 6:13 PM |

Saturday, February 24, 2007

nick : NICCCC ! im NOT emo okayy. haha. and i wouldnt turn emo. dont worry.

bettina : same to you too [as what i said to niccccc]

today woke up. and went to CUT HAIRR ! :DD i felt my hair was too long. ermm. okay. too non-layered. haha. so went to cut lorh. now its like. THINNN ! :D haha. yeah. then went to WHEELOCK PLACE withh SIS and MUM. yeah. come ipod thing larh. then wen to to BUKIT MERAH LIBRARY. "studied" for like, 1 hour plus ! hahaq. amazing rights. then went to PS to get BETTINA's birthday gift. haha. i cut short my study time for that okayy. haha. yeah. then went home. and now using com lorh.

okay. tmr have greatkidz thing again. yeah. then probably go find DENISE and BETTINA they all. then MY SIS said she'll come around 12. yeah. service. network meeting. then have to leave early lorh. dontknow if still need to bring those stuff JR asked us to bring lehh. yeah.

-stabbed my heart repeatedly to stop it from beating

posted @ 7:21 PM |

Monday, February 19, 2007

okay. im at my AUNT's house now. yeah. stoning as usual lorh. i've been doing it all the years, im used to it. haha. yeah. call me anti social or all i care. the people here are like, average 40 olus 50 plus. i dont usually mix with these kind of people. yeah. cause we talk TOTALLY different languages lorh. i mean. they talk about HORSE RACING, and i talk about things that are WORLDS OF DIFFERENCE from theirs. oh mann.

okay. i got really pissed this morning. with my mother. yeah. some family thing. yeah. i shouldnt post it up here rights. haha. yeah. then went to my GRANDMOTHER's house. then now AUNT's house. was reading WEB OF DECIET. by DAN BROWN. yeah. was so bored, so read my cousin's book. haiya. dont know what to do now.

im going to die very soon. my mind is running in all directions. i dont know what to do anymore. i dont know what to think anymore. how can i ever face anyone ever again ? after all that has happened in my life. everything is falling fast, downhill. i cant hold it back anymore. its just to painful. i dont want to do this anymore. i cant stand it. why cant anything turn out right in my life.

-i just feel like breaking everything thats in front of me

posted @ 6:52 PM |

Saturday, February 17, 2007

IM BOREDDDD ! :DDD

im going out at FIVE !

:DDDD

ULTRA ULTRA BOREDDDDD !

my fingers hurt from playing the guit for so longgggg today

posted @ 4:13 PM |

Friday, February 16, 2007

yayyy ! im boredddd. sighs.

today had some chinese new year thing. yeah. in school. so IRRITATING okayyy. they said would be early dismissal. in the end found out school would end at 1pm. 1 HOUR earier only lorhhh. haiz.

then after school went to PS. yeah. DORCAS wanted to but her cross. then went to MACS for lunch. yeah. then headed to VIVO. FADINA REBECCA and HER FRIEND was there. then got. ermm. WETTTTT. THANKS TO DORCAS CHEUNG ! haha. yeah. splashing water on each other. then saw this guy, who looks REALLY REALLY like QIJUN SIR. haha. super funny okay. yeah.

then took 57 home. ran from the bus stop ALLLLL the way home. cause it was like, raining like maddd. and my POOR CRUMPLERR. sobs. yeah.

YAYY ! my mum bought an appe ipod. ermmm. 8gb. haha. yeah. so helping her download and all.

you wouldnt be here. dont know what to do anymore. heard you didnt do well. i wouldnt know what to say if you tell me that. im really not prepared for anything right now. im too occupied. not really physically. but TOTALLY mentally. sighs.

-i wouldnt survive a day without you

posted @ 9:28 PM |

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

okay. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL ! haha. got like, some presents today. yeah. i feel so badddd. i forgot to bring HONEYYY's rose to school today. sobs. yeah. then like, yeah. i felt like a total MORON the whole day cann. RARHH !

then STUPID fire drill thing. WHAT THE HELL. they said its tomorrow okayy. then sunddenly today. but i really cant be bothered. then stoned in the field for like how many MILLION AGES canns. then later went to class. MISSED CHINESE ! =D yeah.

cca. wth. im like really PISSED okay. with like, the sec 1s. yeah. you have to repeat how many MILLION times okay. and they still DONT get it. RARHH ! i feel like biting off their heads lorh.

then went to TIONG with DORCAS. yeah. to eat fries as usual at MACS. haha. then alcohol at THINK TANK. yeah. 50 cents. yeah. and that shop keeper played with my rose. so funny okayy. he said he was going to buy it for his girlfriend too ! then he was posing around with the rose. haha.

then came home. watch DANCE FLOOR. yeah. then my STUPIDDD internet got something wrong. couldnt come online for SO LOOONG. wth. yeah

im totally trying to get over YOU okayy. i dont feel like seeing you this sunday. but i guess if i do, its not of my own choice anyways. i dont think i'll dare face you again. oh mann. not anymore.

-wouldnt dare look you in the eye again

posted @ 10:05 PM |

Monday, February 12, 2007

lazy to blogg again ! =D

haha. yeah. just know my balloon got stuck in the cateen fan today ! =D

-im still crazy over YOUUU

posted @ 6:34 PM |

Monday, February 05, 2007

oh mann. i finally changed my blogger thinggg. yeah. im so lazy to blog lorh. yeah. i want like, sunday to come again okayy. but. when a sunday comes again, its a week CLOSER to O LEVELS. and im so gonna die soon. someone kill meeeee. oh mann.

posted @ 6:25 PM |