little things today that triggered it off.
sometimes, i seriously feel like a foreigner in my own homeland. its a really stupid feeling, & if you felt it before, you'll know that it sucks.
even sales assistants, waiters, cashers are foreigners. nono, i'm fine with foreigners in our land. but for everyone's sake. go learn some frickin' english. i don't need perfect english, just those that it'll be alright to communicate with ? GOSH.
walking into a store,
dad : do you have book shelves ?
sales assistant : she meh ?
dad : (looks at sales assistant weirdly) nevermind.
(i just laughed, cause papa's chinese is worse than mine)
eating at a JAPANESE restaurant,
dad : i'll have this set. . .
waitress : ni yao chicken hai shi beef ?
dad : chicken.
dad : (to us) seeing china people makes me lose my appitite.
(no, its not in the racist way, but its just wrong. english anyone ?)
paying at giant,
casher : zhe shi chong nah li lai de ? mei you 'price tag' (idk what it is i chinese)
(fuck ?)
dad : (obvious pissed off look) idk, you're the one working here.
(& she took her time to stroll there, & still looking at batteries or something along the way. . .)
& when she came back,
casher : mei you ah. . .
(HAHA, mind you, my sis hates the china accent)
sis : (scolds her off in english)
casher : (blur)
sis : fuck, (& scolds her off in chinese)
(its stupid, but its a piss off)
yes, we need foreigners to function, cause we need people to take the jobs right ? but ain't there many unemployed singaporeans ? okay, maybe not enough education people could learn alittle more. & those with pride issue(like, "i can't work that job, its too low class") should shove its aside, cause low class job beats no job.
the foreigners that come to singapore should seriously learn some english. like i said, no excellent english is required, but enough to do your duties in your jobs ? its not only those from china, there's also some from indonesia & malaysia. i'm not racist please, i just really don't like feeling like a foreigner in my own country.
i'm alright with singapore being multi-racial, & multi-lanuage, but english is a UNIVERSAL language. yes, you go to japan you speak japanese, you go to china you speak mandrin, you go to malaysia you speak malay. but singapore, yes, rojak country, but you still have to speak ENGLISH. don't the foreigners every understand that ? you have to adapt when you go to other countries, you have to learn. its making it difficult for those singaporeans that have to communicate with them. & its been getting really horrible.
i'm fine with singaporeans speaking chinese to talk with each other. but at least when they're spoken to in english, they UNDERSTAND & reply in english. gosh.
posted @ 11:27 PM |
Monday, December 22, 2008
bob : haha, yeah :/
___ : uhm, you are ?
haven't been using the computer for TEN days, lol. even though its in my room now. have been quite busy :/
christmas is coming in THREE days. & the mood's still not hitting yet :/ so weirddddd :/ its like, this year is the no-feeling year. there hasn't been the mood for the celebrations :/ like, even last month ? & this month ? oh wells.
ANYWAYS, if anyone texts me on 26decembere(friday) till 28december(sunday), i won't reply, i'm in malaysia, with no reception :/ sucks huh. but MAY reply when back(if the text comes in).
things have been happening. idk what to really do about it. cause whatever i do always comes out worse. so, idk.
- cause i never wanted anything the way i wanted you, but the words don't seem to matter.
posted @ 2:29 PM |
Friday, December 12, 2008
junchao : mmhmm (: its quite catchy (:
songs getting stuck over & over in my head. omgosh. seems really weird to be listening to slow songs all of a sudden :/ whatever happened to metal/rock ? okay, not that i stopped listening to them , but its definately lesser :/ oh wells. maybe it'll do good for my ears ?
today's the day for rushing all over to get the logistics for tomorrow. get stuff from TESSA at four, at ps, then 6 at near AMANDA's place. hoho.
guess "it's complicated" really turns out to be complicated. run run run through the head. its running all over the place. talk about mixed. :/ (&if you don't know what it means, don't ask. i'm not gonna go around answering questions, cause i'm not gonna say anything. if you really wanna know, wait till i'm ready to tell you, don't ask things thats not related to you at all.)
- i'll scream into the night for you.
posted @ 3:05 PM |
Thursday, December 11, 2008
E5 B5
I never thought that I had any more to give
A5 A5
Pushing me so far here I am without you
E5 B5
Drink to all that we have lost, mistakes that we have made
A5 A5
Everything will change, love remains the same
posted @ 7:09 PM |
G
And I’ll taste every moment
D
And live it out loud
Em
I know this is the time,
C
This is the time
G
To be more than a name
D
Or a face in the crowd
Em
I know this is the time
C G
This is the time of my life
posted @ 6:52 PM |
was just thinking back on the standard chartered marathon. then just realised what disgusted me. no, (not being mean), but its not the out-of-shape who wear cover-butt-only tights, but it was really something else. the smokers. i'm fine if you smoke there, though the smoke would probably damage the runners lungs, but its the runner who are smokers. omgosh. when running towards the finishing line, still remembered spotting afew men, in standard chartered marathon singlets, obviously ran finish whichever race they took part in, standing there looking at people run in, & SMOKING. omgosh. they just ran & they are smoking already ! like how did they even manage their run mann :/ puhlease, if smoking somehow didn't damange your run, don't let it damage others. rememberance of the man, still slick with sweat standing near the medal collection point smoking. its like he couldn't stand another minute not smoking, gosh. maybe his motivation for the run was "i need my stick, cross the line & i can fag already".
- this is a hit for all the lovers.
posted @ 4:51 PM |
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
no no no no no no.
this cannot be happening :/
omgosh, shittt.
did someone open the wrong floodgates or something ?
RARHH.
& Lord, please give me ALOT of self-control :/
posted @ 10:55 PM |
Monday, December 08, 2008
call me dead.
slept around 11plus on saturday night, couldn't sleep. :/ & woke up around 3plus on sunday morning, kept drifting in & out of sleep, but all in all, just stared at the ceiling :/ guess tossing & turning doesn't help you sleep. & finally got my ass off the bed at 5.30. oh gosh, guess it was the big day huh. honestly, i had flu/fever/cold on saturday evening, but sunday morning seemed much better. (: anyways, freezing my way to the mrt station though a 25 minute walk in running singlet & fbts is really not a good idea :/
met DANAE & NICOLE. omgosh, guess the nervous-ness got the better of me :/ bumped into quite afew people from church & school. NICOLE ran with her two friends, DANAE ran ahead, & i just ran on my own (: weird, but i prefer running alone (: anyways, the 10km was a really surprising one. didn't stop at all (: just ran at the constant pace all the way (: which is gooood (: but, was freezing the whole run :/ idk why, but most of the time when i run, i'll feel very cold, :/ even under the hot sun:/
completion was a pure satisfaction (: lol. yes, though 10km is nothing much to others, but its an accomplishment to me ! :D first time running 10km, & completing it without walking (: awesome (:
skipped service. yeah, cause we'll be super late if we went. cause we did walk around after the run, & ate lunch, where MAX JIANHUI SYAIFUL HANWEN & BOON(i'm really really sorry, i suck at chinese names :/) came to find us (:
fever & everything else came back when i went home. nooo, its not a problem with my house. guess God was holding back my illness till after my run huh (: fell asleep on the train to expo :/ oh gosh :/ & yes, didn't gear up for chingay, cause think i'll die halfway. but still think physical activities would make me feel better (:
its raining outside, & its freezing inside. only one window's open, & the aircon's not on. really feel like walking around my own house in the hoodie :/
- stretched beyond my own.
posted @ 1:37 PM |
Saturday, December 06, 2008
YJ : haha, yep (: & its really tiny (:
zupeng : hello (:
chiyen : hello ! (: haha, idk yet though. relinked (:
its been AGES since i last used the computer :O weird huh :/
just moved on tuesday. so it was DAYS of just mess & chaos. lol. quite funny actually. especially when we still have activities going on & we're looking for our bags & clothes & shoes & socks. lol. quite a hilarious sight. so moral of the story, PACK YOUR OWN STUFF, so you'll know where your stuff would be (:
two nights sleeping on my own, not bad actually. not as bad as expected. thought it'll be freaky or i'll lie awake or something, but guess not (: maybe its probably cause i'll doze off not long after lying down, so don't notice much (: good thing next few days would be tiring too (:
TOMORROW is standard chartered. & i'm kinda freakin' out :/ idk. i pray i won't fall sick, cause i am already starting to :/ yes, pray against the incoming fever & flu & whatever else PLEASE. its been causing ALOT of discomfort since yesterday :/ anyways, tomorrow would be a rush & tiring day. wake up early, run 10km, rush home, rush to bathe & whatever else, rush to church(&hope to make it in time), have dinner, & then its chingay contingent rehearsal. :/ so much for suday(sabbath), lol.
decemeber is supposed to be totally holiday mood, like, happy & peaceful, & yet there are things on :/ omgosh. like quite afew. myhopesingapore practice/rehearsal & the day itself. tribe camp. cell sleepover. then there'll be the change in service timings & there'll be heavy load of practice & trainings. omgosh.
hope next week won't be as busy as this & the earlier week. like things day after day :/ omgosh :/ maybe i'll just collaspe in exhaustion one day, lol. but maybe it'll be good (: then i'll have a good sleep (:
- i've lost sight of where i'm meant to be.
posted @ 4:20 PM |