my tears run down like razorblades
& i lose myself in all these fights
to lose my sense of wrong & right
shaking from the pain that's in my head
mixed, of course. but i don't really care anymore.
posted @ 9:29 AM |
DORCAS : what hot stuff ? lol. YES, imy too please. when's your nlevels ? we'll go out after that ((:
i'm dead beat. anyways, i'm grounded to the max. :/
MAMA's gonna get my hair cut, "like a student" she says. oh wells, idk how bad its gonna be. (& if you see me around, please do not laugh, i'll be embarrassed enough).
she's gonna make me come from straight after school.
she's not gonna let me go out & study anymore.
she's gonna make me 'hand in' at leaset one mob & one econs essay everyday.
she's not gonna let me go for youth service, but rather attend adult service with her, & NO cell group meetings.
& she's gonna make me mug on saturdays & SUNDAYS.
oh wells, so much for punishment for doing horribly at mid years, guess all these are gonna stay till after promos. :/ drats, oh wells, that's my punishment, & i've gotta live with it. what sucks the most, ALL. oh wells, at least she didn't take away my phone. lol.
this week is my last day for everything. yesterday was my last time going out, which was to TRANSCENDENCE. today's last youth service. & today's POSSIBLY the last day with my fringe(idk why they hate it), & yes, the last day of my freedom. gosh, she wants the essays tonight too. & ALL my file done, & of course, i still have a gp essay & some mob questions that i haven't completed. GOSH. & yes, i've got church, leaving in half & hour, & would be home at 6 latest. so much for time. screwed mann. :/
- build a wall around the world to ease my troubled mind
posted @ 9:16 AM |
Friday, July 18, 2008
i'm too lazy to type much.
went to school.
stayed back with BOBIN CECELIA DANIEL MARVIN & JUNCHAO to study.
went home.
went running, &&&&&&, improved my timing by one minute :DD
ate crab for dinner (:
& gonna sleep soon, maybe.
after a little some thing ((((:
- sometimes it feels like everything is wrong in here.
posted @ 9:42 PM |
Thursday, July 17, 2008
dhiv : LOL. what sexy huh. LOL.
JUSTIN : YO AHBENG (:
RedTearyCroc : uhh, i don't get it.
anyways, today had short day cause of alevels mt listening. went to school for GP mass lecture, pe & one period of break, then we left school already. went to ps, & bought something with CECELIA (: yep.
(so sorry to the rest, for leaving super early, was really really tired. & i'll probably ruin it if i stayed)
i'm home, & gonna go sleep super soon. later gonna catch MAGICBOX at the esplanade. (:
tomorrow's gonna be another tiring day. oh wells, what to do with such a packed life ? sucks not even having time for myself :/
- & there's no time to hesitate.
posted @ 3:13 PM |
Monday, July 14, 2008
5 MINUTES. 300 SECONDS.
it could be a long time, or a short one, depending on the circumstances. waiting 5 minutes to see/meet a loved one could be felt like a lifetime. & yet, rushing to catch the bus in 5 minutes is such a short time. it all depends.
i finally beat my self-record. beating myself, pushing myself to go faster after almost two weeks of not training. from 5km in 40 minutes, to 5km in 35 minutes. yes, 5 minutes. so what ? it means a big difference to me. yes, the timing is nothing to mention about. but, it is a self record, run for leisure, not for competition. that makes running awesome (:
- look into your heart & find love like this.
posted @ 8:46 PM |
Sunday, July 13, 2008
so i'll praise you till the mountains reach the skiy
till the rivers all run dry
because of what you've done for me
& i'll praise you with my lips or my guitar
because you are my morning star (:
oh Jesus.
the awesome song PASTOR BRAY SIBLEY sang the other time. its a cry-able song.
& yes, its stuck in my head.
posted @ 8:04 PM |
PICTURES (:
ndp on a tuesday.
(clockwise from front) IAN, DARYL, IVAN, DANAE, & i. :D
yesterday. JAMIE, i , CAI PING (:
(check out of costumes & makeup mann :/ )
the aesome sandcastle the fours of us from the cell did on our last cell outing. monday i think ? the youth day hoilday. it was a star shaped moat (:
the attempted sunset picture i wanted to take while dinnering.
CLOUDS :D okay, taken during maths class. sun was too bight, explains the lighting.
- & you make me smile (:
posted @ 9:40 AM |
cecelia : HELLO :D
i'm dead beat. GOSH. okay, yesterday went for inter-house netball, met HUIJIE in the morning. i so wanted to be reserve, so i'll probably didn't need to play, but ended up playing. yeah, after our team was out, we went to watch volleyball & basketball (: haha. & CECELIA was there. yes, sadness, didn't manage to watch soccer, but oh wells. :/ then went makan with CECELIA, ate pastamania :DD lol.
mat IAN at city hall. & DANAE too. then walked to singapore flyer carpark. met IVAN along the way. LUCKILY yesterday we didn't have kfc for dinner mann. omgosh, when the food we came so many people was like "HENG AH, not kfc". well, guess kfc is rather unhealthy, &&& by the time it reaches us, it tastes rather tasteless already :/ idk why. then went to put MAKE-UP. OH MY FRICKIN' GOSH. :/ our make up look like clowns. okay lah, its better than the rest, but it still looks akwarddddddd. :/ our mentor helped us take many pictures, i'll try & get it from her & upload it. the performance was okay, better than last saturday's. (: but still quite straining lah. but its alright.
didn't go gkidz today. & told NICOLE i won't be going for cell meeting. rushing gp project. if i don't do now, i've got no other time already ! :/
- every day spent with you is a best day of my life.
posted @ 9:17 AM |
Friday, July 11, 2008
&&&&, but many questioning, NOOO, the post on 1st july is not saying anyone. its part of a lyrics of a song of a metal band.
so please, don't mis-interpretate. thank you (:
posted @ 8:55 PM |
YJ : haha, yeah, i'm not daring mah. LOL.
iAN : haha, oops. but still, i found your blog ! :D
okay, today last minute got pulled in for inter-house touch rugby. :O haha, yeah, turned out to be quite okay, for a noob like me. HAHA. tomorrow i'm in interhouse netball. then after that have ndp. GOSH, like inter-house netball from 8-11. then ndp from 2.30 till 10.30. like omgosh can, busy busy tiring day. :/
ANYWAYS, to the people out there who texted me, I AM SO SORRY, but i can't reply. i have VERY little text left. like 5 text for 2 more days. so yeah. not gonna reply ANY text at all, & i'm so sorry. would reply asap on monday.
- if anyone could make me a better person, you could.
posted @ 8:29 PM |
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
YJ : oops, sorry, my english is not good. lol. YES, icecream :D but daily scoop had more flavours ! :/
okay, met YIJING at the mrt. omgosh, we were taking the SAME train, SAME carriage & we didn't see each other till we walked out. then she came & tapped/idk-do-what to my shoulders. haha. then met JIARONG. ate at MANHATTAN FISH MARKET :D nice luh (: then went to walk around alittle.
went to island creamery. though i saw MI people inside from far far away, turned out to be CJC. then later when we walked out, there were two MI people outside eating too. LOL.
was walking on the overhead bridge when i saw AMANDA. yes, i shouted her name in exclaimation when i saw her. then i realised i was alittle too loud. HAHA. anyways, i don't really care. then took bus to newton, took train to ps, to meet afew classmates. (:
went to ps, then went to minds cafe. shit, i made a fool out of myself, but yes, as usual, i don't really care too. LOL. then rushed home.
tomorrow's class barbecue. pray hard i can go :/ yes, i haven't asked yet, but i did mention before to my parents. waiting for PAPA to come home to ask. lol.
- that's what you get when you let your heart win
posted @ 9:15 PM |
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
What you don’t know isn’t gonna hurt you
What you can’t see isn’t of your concern
Don’t waste your time, you’re never gonna find
Its none of your business
Never should you mind
posted @ 3:09 PM |
because of your love there is dancing in my heart
beacuse of your grace i am free
because if your faithfulness
there's a song that must be sung
i will sing
i will sing
because of you
okay, lit paper's finally over mann :D it ended like yesterday. then went out luh. watched get smart. its hilarious mann :D
then came home & went running. 5km. GOSH. i'm becoming unfit. :/ sucks :/ anyways, then went to work out after running. packed sister's room, then went to sleep. today was supposed to be a slack day luh. but later have ndp at 5pm. till like 10 plus again. then tomorrow meeting JIARONG & YIJING. omgosh. idk why JIARONG want to meet me for. cell leader intorigating cell member ? LOL. thursday there's class gathering, or well, barbecue. haha.
today's ndp's gonna be tiring. :/ the continuous of the test they gave us last tuesday. omgosh. i already failed one station can :/ cause i almost fell, then didn't dare try again after two time. yesh. then there's gonna be the "break fall & get up" station. shit, sucks. but at least we'll know what lines we're gonna be in today. lol. then can ask for excuse letter already :D as in, for the mi mart. cause got previews on that day. lol.
- vengence is mine
posted @ 1:50 PM |